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The walls!

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The walls are crumbling.  I can feel it, i know it and they also know it. I sneak a peak at his heart, doesn’t look like i thought. I take a step back, trying to build those walls up again, he tried coming close I used the remaining power left in me, my hands stretched forward in a way of commanding someone to stop. That little desmostration, sent him flying back with full force. Building the walls again, more defined this time, more arranged and with a huge shield to prevent it from the outside. I sat there focused and lonely. But powerful and stronger  The more i stay within the cold walls, the more i keep losing my passionate side but i become stronger day by day, no one comes close enough to break down the walls again. And to be honest, no one is worth going out of this walls for. . . 
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Feels~

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She hates having to be an option! A second choice! She always ends up that way, even when She doesn’t expect it. It hurts real bad, to be taken as a second choice, they won’t care how much she feels having to be a second choice. Treated like crap. That hurts. Spoken to when they feel like. That hurts even more. She wants someone to see her and be like ‘damn that’s a fine piece of meat I don’t ever wanna let go’ but NO everyone sees her as the damn empty plate that needs to be thrown into the trash truck! That’s not fair, she figured life ain’t fair itself. Cus you think there’s alot you could gain from her, you decide to lie that you want her meanwhile you don’t! You make her come over and show much attention to her friends or any other chick that’s not fair. It hurts alot. And you know the funniest part? Nobody is gon know how she feels nor see this. ✨✨
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Full plates!

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Running away from the things on my plate. Not just one, but 5 of them. All pepper sauce! That’s too much for an 18 year old girl! But everyone has their plates. Ofc, with different dishes served to them. Mine is just too much. There’s NO water to drink, so it could be easy. They say before you drink, i need to finish the sauce!
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Feels~

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She used to wonder why she always feel small compared to girls her age. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. She still feels like a small girl inside, cus she never had the childhood any child could get.  So sometimes she just do things people of her age does... Fixing her nails makes her feel like an adult, anything of age she tries doing it cus it's her  safe place. She try as much as possible to avoid anything that would make her feel like a 4 years old child on the inside. Feelings 
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Love...

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Do you think, I'm broken? No you not. You just need that attention and care no one ever thought you deserve. Right. But do you think I need mental assistance? Of course not, sweetie. So, why do you keep running away? Why do you look at me like I need help? Cause I love some abnormal things? No. I think you need love not help. 
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In his world

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Every time I pick a pen. I don't think I go on a trip. I think I get lost in trance... Lost in a world of my own. It's crazy how I found you in it. Didn't think you'd be busy stabbing me. I'm alive. Yes.  I don't wanna get lost in that trance again. Because you killed me on the last one. Lost in a world of my own. But not in the world mine.  In the world of yours. 
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The Sun.

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Laying in bed, naked, not naked. But naked. The sun yelling down at me through my room window. I think the sun wants me out of bed. I've been like this for three days, trying to understand where I went wrong. And no, this time I'm normal, not high on any drug, which feels kinda weird to be feeling bad without it. He thought he broke me, but the sun says I've still got a bright future ahead, I once said bury me with a bellyache but don't be a copycat. I'm tired of feeling, but the sun says it's okay to feel like this sometimes. I'm weak and heartbroken but the sun says it's okay to be broken. I want to stand up, but I doubt I'll be able to stand, cus I don't see any reason to. The sun is about talking to me again, but this time I jumped up from my bed to shut the windows.  To my surprise, I finally stood up after 3 days...
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