The Sun.

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Laying in bed, naked, not naked. But naked. The sun yelling down at me through my room window.

I think the sun wants me out of bed. I've been like this for three days, trying to understand where I went wrong.

And no, this time I'm normal, not high on any drug, which feels kinda weird to be feeling bad without it.

He thought he broke me, but the sun says I've still got a bright future ahead, I once said bury me with a bellyache but don't be a copycat.

I'm tired of feeling, but the sun says it's okay to feel like this sometimes. I'm weak and heartbroken but the sun says it's okay to be broken.

I want to stand up, but I doubt I'll be able to stand, cus I don't see any reason to.

The sun is about talking to me again, but this time I jumped up from my bed to shut the windows. 

To my surprise, I finally stood up after 3 days...

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